from High-tide Lover
Here I combine April and May together, as I sort of skipped a summary of April.
The end of April saw many scenarios come about. One being a new job in Columbus. I've made way too many new friends to mention, joined an outdoor soccer league on Monday nights, and am frequently at the gym. I'm awaiting the final two episodes of LOST and wondering how anyone could not enjoy this series. I will truly miss this genius show which I only discovered a few months ago. Few things in life get me truly emotional anymore, and it can be a mistake for anyone to believe that I will. It is always possible that I can become that way again, however even I do not know what that would take. It could be anything, and I'm not really looking. I'm waiting for it to find me.
Between my travels and within my writings, it becomes clearer and clearer to me that the timing of events, of situations, in one's life only have purpose within just that - one's individual life. It doesn't involve a higher power, it doesn't involve any other human or future. It is all you. This timing prepares each and every one of us for those "how do I?" moments. The only way we overcome, the only way we survive or succeed is based on one simple thing. When we arrive at those moments, what have we done throughout the years of our pasts to answer this question in the present? What scenarios did we learn adversity from? We can pretend to ask others for their opinion, advice, or their solution. None of that matters. Friends, family, gods, strangers, co-workers, etc. You can perceive their input as important as you want; fact of the matter is that if you follow any of the aforementioned, you are in no way true to yourself. You leave your path. You redirect your journey.
Your educated gut feeling (it is educated whether you feel it is or not. Your life has specifically prepared you for these moments. Moments that may be falsely common to some, but are truly unique to you), the one that certain third party opinions will stand behind and others will try to thwart, is the one and only way. Some will have experienced similar chain of events and each will give what they believe is the adequate equation to solve the problems that find you through life. Again- your past experiences, your common knowledge, that "gut" feeling to make a decision that disregards the social norms. The options you weigh on your mind are yours and yours alone, no matter how common they might seem among those around you. Each thought, each passing minute, each sunset has a message. If we don't take the time to add these messages up as they come, then we scramble for answers when a critical moment arrives. We seek the help that others ultimately cannot give, no matter how close the friend, how loved the family member, or how high the god. Have you paid attention to the timing of events in your seemingly normal, routine, every-day life? You will not make it through as your true self if you don't.
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March 2010 - A 24th Birthday, Change of Style, and the Let-down
from High-tide Lover
The third month of 2010 saw some decent action. I mean, hell, I had some of the greatest interviews I've had since graduating. In fact, they were the best. No other interviews to this date were as positive, encouraging, or as promising as these. Marriott and IHG are outstanding companies, would've been pretty sweet huh?I rounded the corner and crossed into year 24 of my existence. Not
much of a big deal there, haha. There are certain things I look forward to accomplishing. And thought hell let's utilize the increasingly retro bullet-list!
- Getting better at guitar. Something I have such a passion for, something that can set me free like no other.. I would love to make that a complete freedom someday.
- Getting into the best physical and mental shape of my life. Joining the gym has been a giant step for me, and once I can get a job and get a steady routine going, I feel as if I will be such a more positive person..more so than I currently am.
- Italiano! A) Because I think I'd be badass if I could speak it. B) Family history. C) Because my mom will kill me if the language program she supplied me with is not used
- Cooking. Yes, cooking. It's no secret I'm a fairly independent person. I grew up learning to entertain myself, which I think was an unseen gateway into how my life would be at 24. I enjoy doing my own thing, and making kickass food is something I want to get down.
Another not-so-well-kept secret is that my love for writing continues to grow. My friends can no doubt remember back to seventh and eighth grade; me writing up scripts and show outlines for our crazy film endeavors and the infamous BWF hahaha. Through college, I grew tired of the grind of it. But through this blog and the songwriting I have managed to work on is bringing the love back, baby.
I look to make these monthly recaps to about the length of this entry. Why not just feature them on the blog as a normal post? Well I kinda like the posts to be reserved for my thoughts, events, travels, nights out, and other random stuff on my mind/in my life as they day goes on. With this feature, I can go on and on and on without worrying about making a post so long that someone potentially gets turned off and doesn't read farther down to other posts. I find it highly unlikely that anybody is actually reading any of this.. which is really the last thing on my mind; as this is more for me than anyone else. I would love to see some comments on the blog posts, so humor or entertain me. I also find that these long recaps will bring a more relaxed 'me' to this blog, open me up a little more, make me a little more outgoing through this outlet. Well into April we go. Come back for the April recap.. you know you want to.
Paul
