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Do we follow our dreams? Chase them down?

Do we build them?

How do we decide what amendments get approved or rejected along the way?

I've become interested in a number of things over these past few months. Many of which share the same vision-impairing smoke around them. I believe that we, as I sure do, have these massive periods throughout life where we weigh the value of these potential changes to our set ways and the road they travel down, and decide which get abandoned at the next exit and which we tell to buckle up.

Some of the more recent contenders have something that differentiates them from anything I've come across in years: An ability to persuade me that I must act if I want each of them to come along. What the hell is that all about? Don't I always live my days out in any way I actively please? They are the ones who are supposed to make bids to me. Make bids to be a part of the ride, and I pick and choose.

So do I act? Or do I sit idle as I have in my perfect world? I tell myself 'Paul these here could sideline you. First it was that, then that, and that. Now this.'

I know, we're tripping up.

'Nah, we're still good. But I gotta get this shit together man. Maybe it's beautifully good, maybe it's terminally bad.'

This thought process is not helping ourselves.

'Hah, no joke. But ya have each of these hooks dangling completely still right in front of you and--'

--and it's dark in here.

'Def. Ya can't see any of them too clearly, so which ones are you gonna bite?'

Now I'm sorting these things out. Weighing each of them carefully. I've been encountered while way on-guard, and it feels just the opposite.

And, I like it.