we told each other there is no other way

To begin, anything written on here is intended for anyone to see. This is not somewhere for me to "hide," or avoid confrontation. Every word is exactly how I would want someone to read it.

I understand that me not responding in anyway gives the impression that I don't care, however that could not be farther from the truth. But if I was such a bad person for you to go as far to say what was said, then you're right I shouldn't be talking to you.. I shouldn't deserve your time, right? Still attracted to you and still thinking about you, I thought, 'yeah we can finally make this work!!' Back then I was just waiting for you to ditch him like you told everyone you would..by August I think it was.. That was awhile ago..if you were expecting to just leave that and hit the ground running with a full-on relationship with me, I'm sorry...that's how I had wanted it to be last year. In my opinion, that would be irresponsible on both our parts and not the smartest way to handle it. I approached it the way I thought necessary, which obviously was not how you had visioned. While how things have transpired does hurt me, I cannot apologize for that.

My Lima car accident friends have contacted me this morning, breaking what was atleast a 4-month silence. Apparently by 3pm today the paperwork to take me to court will start being processed? I am not sure how to take this. It was my first accident ever, I did not even run the damn red light, granted I stopped beyond the white stop line, but I did not run the light. And for those of you who know the details of both driver's situations..... you know how farfetched this whole mess is.

Had more to say, but my mind's a mess.

when your mind is a mess so is mine i can't sleep
cuz it hurts when i think
my thoughts aren't at peace
with the plans that we make, chances we take
theyre not yours theyre not mine there's waves that can break
all the words that we said and the words that we mean
words can fall short, can't see the unseen
cuz the world is awake, for somebody's sake now
please close your eyes, woman, please get some sleep

too much silence can be misleading
your drifting i can hear it in the way that you're breathing
we don't really need to find reason cuz
out the same door that it came well its leaving, it's leaving
leaving like a day that's done and part of a season
resolve is just a concept that's as dead as the leaves
but atleast we could sleep it's all that we need
when we wait we would find our minds would be free to go to sleep

and know that if I knew all the answers
I would
not hold them from you
know all the things that I know cuz
we told each other there is no other way